fool me once, shame on me, fool me twice, shame on me...

well, well, well...another revealation, time to rethink everything. all the messaging and the words that have been said are overshadowed by actions. is there a reason for me to be upset and feel like the knife in my back will never be pulled out? perhaps not. i like to overreact and probably deserve this or maybe its a fucked up way to show me it's not worth it, its not worth all this emotional bullshit.


im done.




(((listening too: the first day of my life- bright eyes..how fitting)))

decisions decisions

vancouver in january or home in march? that's the question that looms over my head and its a decision i will have to make sooner rather than later. obviously i do not want to waste my time here in canada but at the sametime all i want to do is go home, but fiona will be in vancouver and who knows when i will see her next. at the sametime on my way home i will be making a stop in vancouver for a few weeks. could a few weeks with fiona be enough? or 4 months with fiona? i am thinking the latter is the better option. home will always be there, but will the people at home be the same? everyone is leaving so whats a few more months living abroad? itll be cheaper for me to leave canada to cuba rather than melbourne --> sydney ---> cuba. but i also would like to enrol in TAFE for second semester.

i guess i could always come home in april...maybe.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!

music is my hot hot sex..

list of gigs

September 8:

- Bjork

- Interpol

- MIA

- Artic Monkeys

@ V Festival Toronto

September 9:

- Metric

- Blonde Redhead

@ V Festival Toronto

September 14:

- Interpol

- Catpower

@ Madison Square Garden NYC

September 15:

- Bonde do role

@ somewhere in Brooklyn!!

September 18:

- Bonde do role

@ sala rossa (maybe)

September 19:

- Rilo Kiley

@ La Tupile

September 21:

- Bjork

@ Jeanne Cartier or something

October 11:

- Regina Spektor

@ somewhere in Toronto

October 12:

- Tegan and Sara

@ La Nationale

October 13:

- !!!

@ sala rossa?? (maybe, hopefully!)

...this month is going to be amazing. its hard to say which band/person i am most looking forward too, bjork? (of course, too obivious) how about catpower? (shes going to be soo amazing! and in new york!) maybe even Regina Spektor? (need i say more?) or tegan and sara? ( i have seen them many times before but their new ablum is awesome annd im in their mother country!) but i think the winner has to be RILO KILEY!!!!!!!! the venue is just around the corner from my house and jenny lewis is going to be amazing...i cant wait!

(current soundtrack : jenny lewis and the watson twins)

moon prism power makeup!!

oh! tegan and sara, is there anything they can't do?

okay, the title has nothing to do with this post it was going to be something to do with "obsession". thats me in a nutshell, a fucking obsessed little girl, i cant help it, when i like something i reallllllllllllllllllly like it, i do things obsessively, thinkng, talking listening writing drawing whatever. im obsessive its my nature. so, um yes, sailor moon, big love, rilo kiley and tegan and sara are what i am obsessive over these days, oh and bike rides in the sun and a certain someone that refuses to leave my thoughts and now makes a guest appearence in my dreams. what the fuck? get out of my head already! wah.

TEGAN AND SARA

CALL IT OFF

I won't regret saying this

This thing that I'm saying

Is it better than keeping my mouth shut

That goes without saying

Call, break it off Call,

break my own heart

Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at

Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at

But now we'll never know I won't be sad

But in case I go there

Everyday, to make myself feel bad

There's a chance that I'll start to wonder

if this was the thing to do I won't be out long

But I still think it better if

You take your time coming over here

I think that's for the best

Call, break it off Call,

break my own heart

Maybe I would have been something you'd be good at

Maybe you would have been something I'd be good at

But now we'll never know I won't be sad

But in case I go there

Everyday, to make myself feel bad

There's a chance that I'll start to wonder

if this was the thing to do

I'll start to wonder if this was the thing to do